I live with this man who is an answer to my dreams.
I am 37, and he is 52. We have been together for 5 years. He takes care of it all. He adores me, and we share so much in common. We are not engaged, but want to be. And get married, of course. However, I cannot bring myself to decide if I am ready. He told me many times he does not want kids at all. No adoption, no nothing. He has 1 son who is 25. He claims his heart condition may mean he will die early and I will be stuck raising them. I don’t think it is that serious or deep. I
think he just doesn’t want to be inconvenienced. I have no children. I want some desperately. I have been with him hoping he’d just get me pregnant. I even went off the pill, but he somehow sensed it, and we argued. I’m back on it. But I am ready to just let anyone get me pregnant! I want a child, but I do not want to lose the best thing that ever happened to me. What do I do???
Pain and Pleasure,
From Alphanista w/Love,